and we're back once again...

This lovely room is "home" for the next couple of nights!!!! The package deal I got included a room in one of Williamsburgs hotels, and ours is at the Woodlands. We haven't ever stayed here in all the times that we have come, and being right beside the Visitors Center, we can park the truck and won't need it again until we have to leave. I wasn't sure how quickly we could check in, but since the room was ready, they let us in right away.  We know how crazy busy this weekend can be, so we wanted to get our tickets and get into the city as soon as we could. Knowing the place so well, we know how to "get around" and everything went as planned. 

And so, we're back once again.... the streets seem so familiar and it really doesn't feel like we have been away that long. The weather is cool and bright, and the houses are being finished up with their decorations... it felt good just to walk and take it all in...

I will admit the first time I heard the carriage coming down the road, I cried. It made me miss Duke and the carriage rides I had with him....funny how sounds can bring memories back so quickly......I know that smells can too... but with me not having a sense of smell... I find sounds bring the quickest memories... anyways... with that behind us we went on. 

We came across Liberty and her handler.. this is one of CW's newest mascots. They found that some of the founding fathers did have various pets, and that Briards were a breed of dog in CW... so, they are using this one (and actually there is another that is her double) to be out on the streets. She was a good puppy and has had the training to keep her around the crowds and all that happens. I was hoping to get a chance to talk with her handler, but they were soon mobbed by the crowd, so I didn't bother them.

My picture taking eye went crazy with all the wonderful things I saw... and I know there are just going to be too many photos to edit threw when we get home.... thank goodness for digital...

I liked the use of the peacock feathers in this wreath

And we always like to walk by "our" house... we have stayed in this little house... Ed booked it as a surprise for our anniversary one year... I need to make a point of going back to it again...

The craftsmen were showing off their talents..

The beautiful live oak seems to be doing well... I've yet to find out the age of this tree.... I know it's hundreds of years old, but never think to ask what they think it's real age is..

The palace is all decked out in it's finest. Tonight we are going on a Christmas tour walk, and it includes the palace.. so I'm curious what its all about. 

And even though we've done the tour a "million" times, we went again. I usually pick up on something new each time, but we just like being inside and seeing it ....

So, we spent the day walking about, took a break for supper and came back in the dark. It's so magical at night. The tour we went on was something like "Christmas threw time".. and it took us threw a few of the buildings...Sadly they won't let you take photos of the the tours... but I did get these as we went along...

The baskets were lit along the street, I told Ed we need to get ours put up when we get home and light it off some winter evenings....they look so neat... and they burn "fat wood" in them, so I have already decided that Ed is going to get some fat wood for Christmas.

The day went by way too fast, as we knew it would.. but we have all tomorrow, and tomorrow evening, we're eating here at Shields Tavern...

on the road on this first day.......

So... early in the fall.. I was playing around on the computer and hopped onto Colonial Williamsburg site. We love Williamsburg and haven't been there in a while. I've been thinking it would be fun to go again this year for the Grand Illumination  and discovered that they were running some package deals... so I called. Well, the deal I called about was a good one, but they were offering one even better, and honestly I just couldn't pass it up. So, I booked us in for the holiday weekend.  I worried a little about doing it, with Dad's health issues I don't like being too far from home, but he told me that we should go.... and so, as a surprise I kept it from Ed, thinking it would be a nice gift... but , I couldn't keep quiet. 

With Astrid watching over the farm, and pennies saved all fall, we headed out this morning.... our plan is to drive down as far as we can this first night, but to be in Williamsburg as early as possible so we don't miss one moment there. This is the Tappenzee bridge... I "hate" bridges, and there are several big ones to cross on this trip. I mainly took these photos, because they are working on a new bridge and one day --- I guess -- this bridge will no longer be used... so it's gets its photo in the blog!!!

Next to bridges, I don't like tunnels either.... and we have those to deal with too.  We often have gone across the Chesapeake bay which has both bridges and tunnels... but this time, we are kind of in a hurry, so talking the most direct route. 

We did quite well, and got much further than we thought... and probably would have pushed threw, except that we have no place to stay in Williamsburg on this first night... so, we stopped just north of Richmond and tomorrow, we're just a couple hours away from being "there".... after our sadness on the farm, it's fun to be on the road, and going to that special place that we both love so much.  We talk about the day we bring the grands here, and are looking forward to this weekend, and vacations in the future...

trying to re-group.... and reflect.....

Needless to say, it's been an awful, awful.... awful week. My head and heart are still in a tail spin, and it feels so quiet an empty around here. Two less dog bowls to feed out, empty stall in the barn... it's what happens when you love animals so much. You surround yourself with their love and yet know that they don't live with you (physically) forever... and you make the gamble of if it's worth it. It is, I know that answer, but you have to be willing to deal with the heart ache too.

The worst part is, we didn't expect it from either Cam or Duke...sure, they were both showing some age, but over all their health appeared to be good. It's a good reminder to me that you really need to take care of them, regular vet visits, knowing their habits... spending the time with them... because the obviously can't tell you when they don't feel well... you just need to know. And even with all that, you can be taken by surprise. The last thing I expected was to see Cam's x-rays showing all those tumors in her lungs.... And with Duke, the weather causing him to be thrown off.. and then colic.... 

but in my heart of hearts, we loved these two so very much and did everything in our power to give them happy heathy lives, and they knew it. They loved us back... and there are people who have not as a good of a life as our pets do....

And then, what do I do... begin to look to see "what is out there" for another horse. I saw an ad for one and Ed and I went to look. Maybe it's too soon, I need to chose right for both me and Tonka. We looked at a spotted draft, he was quite handsome and the lady was pretty nice. She told me that he hasn't had any attention in over a year, OK.. I get that... means he needs work. But, what I saw totally shocked me. Work wasn't even the word. His manners were horrid.. not respect for space.. they harnessed him (with some trouble) and her idea of "ground driving" was to be dragged all about the yard. I had thought of trying to drive him myself, but figured if he was giving his owner this much trouble, a stranger would be just a big game. We thanked her for her time and left. 

Tonka needs to be work with too... and actually in some ways, Duke took that away from him. Because Duke was just so easy to drive, and could go in a moments notice.. that's what I did. I know more about driving now, thanks to Duke, and have decided that I probably already have a pretty good driving horse... I just need to bring him out. So, I did just that... when we got back from seeing the other horse, I harnessed Duke and out we went. 

Astrid dropped by... (she's really sad too)...and took these photos of Tonka and I. Now, he hasn't really been touched either, but the total difference between him and the horse we just saw gives me real courage. He knows and respected all his manners.. and actually seemed quite happy to have attention. Well, I know he's happy because he's grieving too.

He stood nicely, responded well to quiet ques  and I was pleased. I'm not exactly ready to hitch him to the wagonette.... but one day, I might be able to

We walked out along the pasture, and then I even took him up and down the road... he was a very good boy...

I know we will get another horse... I think we all need one.. but, I need to make a new commitment to what I already have... the exercise would be good just to start.. I can do the walking.. the more I work with Tonka, the better we will understand each other. And perhaps, I have what I'm looking for right in my own back yard. Either way.. time is the great healer... and we'll be sad for a very long time here around the farm.... but life is every day, and we need to enjoy it... 

So, to a new normal... 

ornaments and a birthday

We have a trip coming up in a few days... and when we get back, it will be the start of the holiday season. So, I decided to get our tree up and put up a few decorations, so that when we return.. it will be ready. I head to the cellar and pull out the ornament box, and opening it up.. kind of feels like old friends have returned for a visit. I started collecting ornaments when I was 15... always thinking "one day I'll have my own tree". It was crazy collecting, just an ornament or two a year, but now, when I pull them out and think they are "40 years old"... it just doesn't seem possible....

Our tree isn't "real".. which living in the great state where we grown Christmas trees, seems kind of "mean".. but I have to admit having a fake means they can go up much sooner and stay longer. So for now, I will do with putting the real greens on the doors and enjoying the fake inside. I will say, we did buy a good one, so it's a little hard to know it isn't real... and some trees I have seen are even harder to judge.... and it has it conveniences... but, I miss the hunt of the real tree and even though it was a bother... all the "events' that go with bringing a real tree in and getting it up....

The little brown dog was "great help" decorating the tree... and lets hope that sir Henry doesn't think this is a jungle gym for him to climb.... to be safe... we'll tie it to the wall... we have had tree falling disasters in the past!!!

But, back to the ornaments... there are some special ones that hold huge stories... and as much as I hate to admit it.. this poor (ugly) one comes to the top of the list. I'd had this one "gone" years ago, but Ed won't hear of it. I made this ornament ... when we were teens, there was a whole group of us that hung out. We were just into the driving stage, and many of the guys had vehicles... pick up trucks, jeeps... we were all associated with the fire department, and though there were couples, we were all friends. So one year, I made these "Santas" for everyone's vehicles to hand from the rear view mirror... I gave them out and all the guys hung them in their vehicles. Back then, my dear Ed had a crush on me... it was years later before we (I) had the brains to realize what a great couple we were (are)... but if there were any doubt how he felt about it, this could be a sign. He kept that silly Santa ornament for years!!!!! even to the point that the first Christmas we were married and had our own tree... he pulled this out and put it on our tree. It's was in pretty sad shape then, because he had kept it so long, and I tried to not have it on the tree, but he insisted... as he has every single year since. And when the tree goes up, he looks to be certain that "his Santa" is hung... I often try to hide it in the back of the tree somewhere, only to find he has moved it up front where everyone can see it..... so this year, I gave up... it's on the tree... kind of in the front... and he just gives me a smile when he sees it.... 

This one is prettier... it says.. first Christmas together... we bought it when we were married... 1981.... that make it 35 years this past summer...... 

And then the "memory" ornaments... Dogs are a big topic... horses, hand made ... I don't have so many of the girls ornaments, because I have passed those on....

and ornaments of our loved ones in the past... here's Moxie's... I suppose I need to (when I feel stronger) order ones for Hunter, Camille and Duke... but for this year.. not ready to see ones like this for them...

And because I do love ornaments so much, we often look for them when we travel.. and I pretty much have them from each trip we have taken... which leads to this one from colonial Williamsburg... which is where we are going in just a few days.... and I am sure I will come back with another one from there. 

So, as we get started with he holiday season... so many emotions come up... my Dad's health... the recent loss of our pets... the excitement of the grands... our trip.... it's almost overwhelming and wonderful all at the same time... 

And just to squeeze in another celebration... Mom's birthday. Which coming on the heels of Thanksgiving can sometimes be over looked in a way. but, tonight we celebrate with cake, and the happiness that Dad is home to be there with us...

We all come together in our childhood home....

And have the grands who remind us of how important and fun birthday are.... where one must have cake, candles and sing!!!!! Seeing Reagan's smile at all this reminds us that a child like attitude can be so important in this adult world of ours...

So, we sing... we blow out the candles.. we cut the cake and celebrate today... just today and the blessings we have right now... because life changes quickly and when the good things surround you.... you don't want to miss out on them.....

Thanksgiving.....

So it's Thanksgiving once again...and we are happily getting ready for the family to come and join us in this special event. I think one of the most thankful things this year for me, is that my Dad is coming up as well. His health continues to decline and the past few months, he has spent more time in the hospital than at home.. including all of last week. So the fact that he is home, and willing to make the voyage to the farm is almost amazing. That, and the fact that most of the rest of the family will be here, means so much. (especially after the losses we have just had). So, the dining room is all ready to go...

And this year, we even need a "kids" table.. though there will be more adults than kids at the table.. but it's nice to know we need more 

The weather has warmed again, and has left us with just traces of the snow... I going to find it a dreadful winter if this is how the weather goes... this warm then cold, and warm again, isn't good for any of us... animals included and after this business with Duke, I'm going to be jumpy about the other horses.....

I did a bit of changing the house around... moving our deacon's bench to the mud room makes for a nice sitting spot and then I realized I can even show off some of my quilts as well..... Mona seems to approve of this new arrangement

Since we didn't raise birds this past year, we are using up the ones left in the freezer... it still takes two of them to feed everyone invited, but that's ok because as soon as we get them used up, we will have room to raise again. We're pretty certain that we'll do another batch next summer. I like the idea of raising our own birds, and truthfully, you just can't beat home raised animals. I think I have become quite spoiled with really good meat...... 

Everyone arrives... the house is filled with sound and action.. the tables fill up and as I suspected.. the kids table included more than kids.....or perhaps just all the big kids went there...

A prayer is said, and this is a family that truly knows blessings and I have to say... are truly blessed... so much good food prepared by many hands, and so much fun and happy talk to catch up on...

And then, two surprise guests!!!! The story is long to tell, but we have friends who are from Germany (and then New Zealand).. and we have known them for a very long - long time. Manfred and his son are visiting here in the states, and took the time to come to the farm and have Thanksgiving dinner with us. It was so much fun to catch up on all sorts of things, and of course talk about the past all when we all met and the like. My Dad really enjoyed this time with them both.

Manfred moved his family to New Zealand from Germany for work. From here, they are going onto Germany to visit with friends and family before returning home.... a lot of travel, but while we have them here, we are certainly going to enjoy their company.

After dinner, we walked to the barn to see the animals... no sleigh or cart rides this year, but everyone still wanted to see the "barn"... and then back for dessert and more conversation.... Mom and Dad stayed most of the day, which was really wonderful, but Dad did begin to tire and they headed back. 

Naomi and Abi.. bored of adult conversation, had a nice time playing together outside with their little horses..... we missed not having the boys this year.. but with the families getting bigger.. sharing is a must.

And so, the holiday season has officially begun. This year I have a deep appreciation for what we have right now.. because, you really never know what the next week... the next day will bring. So.. a promise to myself is that I am going to enjoy every single moment of this special time of the year. I'm not going to fuss or worry about what didn't or isn't... and have already decided it's my new resolution ... I'm not waiting until the new year to declare it.. because "it' is now....